babies........

I live in tension. I want to finish school n-o-w, I want to have another baby. If I were not in school now I'd have another baby. This is where the coopertive community model of living would come in handy. I don't believe in day care. I wish I had full support (ie help) in making this a reality. Sometimes I wonder if there is a very real solution and I'm simply missing it--I don't know. I don't like the idea of planning babies ("in 3 years we'll try to have another one...") I prefer the idea of fate and a baby choosing now to be the moment to come into the world. Perhaps that is just a bit too pie in the sky thinking for some, but I like it.